Why do I have to see this through

Why do I have to take this?

Isn't there something I can do

to make myself finally say this

You're not the one that you pretend to be

I drop to the floor like I did before

Stop watching

I'm coughing

I can't be more

What I want and what I need are at constant war

Like a well full of poison

a rotten core

The blood goes thin

the fever stings

And I shake from the hell that the habit bring

Let the sick ones down

the bells will ring

Put pennies on the eyes 

let the dead men sing

So this is how we fall apart

This is how the ending starts

And when we find we lost our minds

We fake what we don't know